Song

So song writing is my drug, it saves me from going mental..seriously.

for the past few weeks I have really had it on my heart this idea that when God made us, He looked at us and said "we were GOOD" He wasnt comparing us to anything, there was no standard of good, He made us in HIS PERFECT image and said we were good. Everything in this world tells us the opposite. Says we are not "good enough" in someway shape or form, and personally im getting pissed at the world. I have come to believe the best way that satan defeats us (at least me) is to "twist" or just plain lie..about the core fundamentals that Christ gave us...one being that God truly loves us and another being that we are not "good enough." Much to say I wrote a song about it all.....


Good Enough

These voices scream to me
the lies im starting to believe
now im starting to give in

I wake to a new day
which says that for love I must pay
everything that I don’t have and more

How do I stand in you
trusting your words are true
when all that surrounds me
tries to define me
saying im not worthy of this love

Im taught that freedom can't come free
but you say, truth will do that for me
oh how I need that now
tonight Im walking with my eyes shut
these standards they just hurt to much
but what if its not me that’s wrong

How do I standin you
trusting your words are true
when all that surrounds me
tries to define me
saying im not worthy ofthis love
How do you look at me and see beauty
(2)The power of graceis that He took my place
So you can look at meAnd see beauty

1. When God was finished making us He looked at what He made and said it was "good". In today's world EVERYTHING... i mean EVERYTHING around us is telling us the message that we "are not good enough" that if we just had "blank" or just were "blank" then we would somehow Measure up to this universal standard of good enough. When God made us and said we were good there was no comparison to anything. He didnt say "compared to (blank)..you pass!!!! your good enough!" lol He simply said we were GOOD. My weakness, my fight and battle, my hearts thorn is that Im never enough of anything......pretty enough, smart, worthy, no matter WHAT it is...i just never measure up. What if somehow we could train our minds that when we have these thoughts, to say to ourselves "ya know what...God... G.O.D....says im good the WAY I AM. Yes my shortcomings and ALL."

2. When God madue us He made us in the image of Himself. The Bible also shows that God wasnt really alone when He made us...He had the presence of the Holy Spirit and the Son.... Hence He said " Let us make them in OUR image".... the trio shows community and how we as humans are DESINGED for community, relationships. To me that was honestly discouraging and well, scary because relationships are my passion....and what if I never measure up or am worthy enough for the one thing Im created for! But thats not the community we were designed for... the trio of God, the Son and the Holy Spirit are the communiity that compliments each other... shines the best in one another and loves one another so much more, that they sacrifice for them. They want the others best interest, and is absolutey PERFECT community. That is what we were desinged for.. and katie we live in a world where EVERY relationship WILL dissapoint and fail us. sooooooo

3. (almost done!!!) I want you to imagine something... for real. Imagine being in an atmosphere where the being that created you says you are PERFECT. You are constanly being in an enviornment where you are being told you are passionatly loved, you are good, you are beautiful, there is nothing that you lack, and everything you could ever need is in this being that is telling you all these things. We are beings that were desinged to have something.. no someONE who is outside of ourselves TELL us we are worthy, we are beautiful, we are loved and we are good. In the garden, we had that, we had God telling us those things....but since the fall adn that disconnection b/w God and man....we look for that voice to tell us who we are in other people, and other things. We dont hear God's voice of approval anymore. We can say all we want that as long as we are happy with who we are and confident, we dont need other people's approval...but i dont think i can do that. because I don think i was desinged that way. Am I saying God desinged us to put our worth is other's approval and that their opinions are truth and reality?.... NEVER...im saying the exact opposite. Im saying we need to TAKE back the power we have put in others to define us, and give it back to the one who is wrothy of it.

Song

They Tell Me

They tell me girl just try
A little harder next time
Get yourself in line
Maybe you’ll be alright.

They tell me play the part
That wont break your heart
Hide everything you are
Girl it cant be that hard.

But I know that road
And if you keep walking you’ll loose your soul
There’s a big world out there… to know
So I must go.

Please just try and obey
What the voices say
Don’t ask why
Life is easier Blind

But I know that road
If you keep walking you’ll loose your soul
There’s a big world out there… to know
So I must go.

Girl just close your eyes
Repress all the lies
don’t dream farther than your time
That’s how you’ll be alright. (2)
that’s how you’ll die

Song

Formulas Dont Apply

I thought if I played my cards right
I wouldn’t be where I am tonight
If I played it safe not much to say
I ‘d protect what I used to give away

What if I said that im done
with playing these games
of the heart
That leave it hungry for more


**I found out, without a doubt
In this life oh formulas don’t apply
It doesn’t matter how hard we try, everything will either live or die

hey there, dreamer they call out to me,
when will you come back down.
Dreaming is just for the weak
and I think you show that well.
Oh I believe this more than I know
For it comes from deep in my soul
But I believe its
The only way to save our souls.

A few years in
I think I might now, be just a little more healed
But my heart is still crying and searching
Bleeding for something real.
And I want to see in your eyes
Life is more beautiful than lies
Rise from the ground to the sky

**I found out, without a doubt
In this life oh formulas don’t apply
It doesn’t matter how hard we try, everything will either live or die
Oh Im so tired of compromise
I just want you to look me in the eye
That you see its worth the fight
That I am worth the fight