Ivory Tower

Im so angry at those people that brain washed me into believing that when x situation arises, you apply y solution.

Its a long gaze down from the top of my ivory tower. The place where my body, my actions, my words, the external me is doing everything right. My body isn't doing anything "wrong". My words arent tearing people down or goodness forbid using swear words. My actions arent doing anything that would "hinder my witness". Its a good thing I stay in my ivory tower and dont move somewhere more transparent because if what was in my heart were to be revealed, then I have already committed adultery and murder in my heart. If where my heart is my treasure will be also, then I can assure you my treasure is of NO WORTH right now.

We think we walk in freedom, because we feel comfortable. We think we are free, because we dont wrestle and question. Those of us who do not question, do not wrestle do not challenge; those of us who feel comfortable, we are the most bound prisoners there are. We become free, when we can be transparent with all of us, all the ugly shit we hide, and find that there is only ONE who can love all of it.

Stories

We all have a story. We have a past, we have fears, we have insecurities, we have that person ( or persons) that left some deep wounds that only love can heal. We have passions and joys and aspirations that reach to the heavens. We have our little selves, the selves that we dont want people to really see, because thats like being an animal lying on their back with their stomach exposed....the most vulnerable and dangerous position. We have our big selves, sometimes I wish I could find that one. Anyway the point is we all have stories....some chapters everyone knows and some no one does. Our stories are NOT by mistake. Dont you believe that lie for a minuet. Our God causes all things to work together for good for those that love Him.

People , we are not formulas. when it comes to things like love, 2+2 does not equal four. Another side note...be kind to people you dont know their stories. I have a mighty God. That's easy to write, but sooo much harder to live. I have a God that knew my story, cover to cover before I was even born. I have no reason to fear...to fear anything. I am in His hands, not mine. Sighhhhh...there it is, that peace feeling that comes when I remember whose I am, and how great He is.