It's Getting Hard

Its getting really hard to wait.
I dont know if its my heart, or my fear I feel I need to speak to.
Im getting to that point again, standing on that edge.
I really would be ok, yeah it would suck but i would be ok, my problem is just.... I need to know.

Im trying to be safe, play it cool, do it right, not rush, be led.
Instead I want to risk, show my heart, act on what I feel, jump into something great, and take charge.

Trust. Be Patient. I hear these words but dont really know how to act on them.
I see myself looking around at others, how they already have it because.....they did something better than I?

The thing i liked about liking you, is it caused me to run harder to God.
Why would I turn to you now?

I will not rush my way into your heart.
I pray the same Prayer I have been praying since December: if this is not something you want Dad, guard my heart for I do not know how. If this is something beautiful, wonderful and something you wish to happen, then I pray you would give him eyes only for me. You would guide him, protect him, build him, grow him, use him. And show him the path he must take to reach me.
thank you he has the heart of david, and WILL seek you. Please speak to him.